iloveyou

2007-01-14T03:14:00.000-08:00

My mood : Bored & Helpless
Time & Date : 7.13pm + 14th jan

Hmm.. Friday jasmine's birthday was enjoyable. Alot of ppll came (:
Wheehees ~ xiaohao baobei, ah y, david, peipei, ziying, yy, grace, dylan, tokyo,
big han, hongshun and xiaoru and peiqi was there.
But i just feel that someone is missing beside me enjoying the happiness.
Jasmine had to finish one cup of red wine as tokyo bought two bottle
of wine in. Ahah~ Stupid ah y kept disturb me. GRR~ Went home after
her birthday together with yy. Clean away my make up, Wash up and then
went to bed immediately. Damn tired~ Hmmm.. As for ytd, 9.36am yy woke up
and den we went to my house dwnstairs to smoke. And then she went home.
I went home and then sleep, woke up quite alot of times dreaming abt different
stories of baby. And then at last woke up and my tears jus drop down my face.
Feeling so terrible and lonely, Im wondering wad's he doing in there. GRR~!
Afternoon i went to mit ningjie darling and alicia and yy at lot1. den saw peipei xhao they all (: Yeps. then went down to foodcourt eat together. Alicia took so long to come and when she reached ,, Guess wad. We've already know her pattern. She kept on very shy dont dare to come over. Lols. Hells !
Around ten plus we all went down behind long john. Talk talk slack slack.
Den me and darling chased joey all around! HURR~ He run damn fast man!
Lucky got ah john and david bro help us catch him. Heehees~ !
Then kelly jiejie came :D Hahs! Hmmm.. She came to mit nouvelle. Hais.
Nouvelle was so sad for the whole night. Everyone dunt feel good either.
Hope she'll get over it faster bah (:
Today, mit yy at lot1 around 12 plus as i woke up damn early. HURR~
Den slack, joey came after that . Darling also. Den slack all around.
Today i bought a dress. And a few pens. Ytd i bought a photo album and
make put in alot of pictures of my and baby :D
I hope i can finish it when he's out (: Stay happy always !
After slacking. joslyn jie came too. Den saw bee. Beebee was damn angry today. Dunno why and its betta not to know. Yep.
Going to school tml ler (: So happy. I can keep myself busy to stop thinking of baby.

I still love you, even if you dont.
I love you too much i cant let go.

2007-01-11T23:14:00.002-08:00

My mood : Boring ( cos its raining )
Time & Date : 3.14pm + 12th jan

Today i didnt go to school. Woke up at 6am by my mum and it was drizzling.
GRRR~ Raining continuosly everyday! Den i took 184 to mit joel & marcus.
Marcus did not reach first. Joel reached first. So me and joel ate breakfast first as marcus was caught in a jam. Hahah :D
Hmm.. After eating, we smoked. Then went to beauty world mac to wait for marcus. Then marcus arrived. Hmm.. Bored lar. Slacking all the way till 1.3opm.
After that we all went home. Prepare to go for jasmine ginna's birthday now. Hehes. Hais. Raining blues ! GRR~ Hate the rain man!
I miss my baby so much lar! ='(
Goodbye everyone ! I have to go (:

Enjoy ur weekend my friends :D
Loves.

2007-01-11T23:14:00.001-08:00

My mood : Boring ( cos its raining )
Time & Date : 3.14pm + 12th jan

2007-01-11T23:14:00.000-08:00

My mood : Boring ( cos its raining )
Time & Date : 3.14pm + 12th jan

2007-01-11T01:07:00.000-08:00

My mood : No words to describe.
Time & date : 5.07pm + 11th jan.

Today school totally scuks man! Left my home at 6.24am this morning.
Took 184 to meet marcus & joel for breakfast at Bukit timah

Ala-meen [ If i didnt spell it wrongly.] Joel was damn late.
So me and marcus order first. We order a cheese prata each. Then i order
a milo dinosaur (: Hehes. Was so delicious! Bleahs.
Then joel came. He ordered a cheese prata too. Then we slacked & talk for
a while before going to school. We were late for school & we did it purposely.
Hahs. When we reached the late coming area in sch, saw Jolene, Leonard, Dominic they all. Hahs. All meet up to go sch late :D Hehes.
Then, a bad news came flying towards us. Our DM, Mr lam came and said

"All the sec3-s are suppose to go up to the hall to see Mr Chow after finish signing our late form. Hmm.. Hells * Once we heard this name Mr Chow,
HURRHURR ~ ATTIRE CHECK! FOR SURE MAN!
Me and Jolene hide to one corner to adjust our blouse and skirt.
I removed my shoelace thats inside my blouse, and then tucked all the way in.
HELLS* When we reached the hall, CB! Mr Chow said Me, Marcus, Jolene, Leonard, Haikal and Benjamin hafta stay back for detention. Diaos ?
I tot i've adjusted my attire? He said Jolene and my fringe was too long!
Walan! Den me and Jolene went down to book shop to buy 2 hairclips each.
He asked us to meet 2pm at the hall after dismissal. Class haven even start yet,
then all these stupid things happen. SO TROUBLESOME !
First lesson social studies. Bored. Maths lesson , our class were SO QUIET ~
for the first time. Only clement ! That talkative shit! kept talking. Hahah.
Chinese lesson, me and leonard fall aslp at the back. Kana called to wake up.
Teehees ~ Last period also social studies. Sian lor. Me, Leonard, Clement
were chit0chatting all the way. We dont care abt the teacher. Hahah !
After sch, serve detention lor. Bored lar. But lucky marcus was there. Hehes.
My good friend :D Erm. after sch, went back home by bus lor. Sians.
Now slacking at home. Lucky dominic gave me one stick. Nicotine level damn low man! Bleahs. I miss my baby lots.

- Should i go back to the old 'him'
Hais. confused now ='(

Everyone study hard (:
You have got a bright future ahead!
SMILES (:

2007-01-10T03:24:00.000-08:00

My mood : Disheartening.
Time & date : 7.37pm + 1oth jan

School was bored today. 2hrs of F&n. Mrs vincent Black cat.

GRRRR~!! Hais. Today after school, took cabbie home.
Very bored. Not tired at all. So decide to come out lor.
aiai's phone no money. So difficult to contact her.
Den meet ah y & jasmine go lot1. hmmms.. Slack at lot1.
Den walk walk, Talktalk, Smoke smoke.
Heard some unplesant things again. I must really accept that
my life was meant to be like that. What to do ? Nothing !
There's really NOTHING i could do! Can someone teach me how to
continue living my life? Fcuk man!
Should i give up ? But i really cant let go. He alwaes leave me alone.
Suffering with all these tortures. These is not wad i want!
They almost always picked the best time to drop the worst line.
Baby always make me cry.. Everyday at night.
Hais. Depressed. Really no one to talk to already.
After hearing all those unpleasant things, i went home immediately after
buying my stationaries. When i was on the way home.
I was alone. Though the noise pollution those passer-by made was quiet loud,
but i just feel so quiet in my heart. I feel that i was lonely. Feel that im
always being fooled. The only one i see standing here with me is the only soul within me. I Feel that everyone's actually putting on a fake
mask! I feel like crying. So badly! Really~ GRRRR~!!!
Sigh* Let me accept tht my life is just like that. I dunt wish to bring it up anymore. I'll forget it in a few days (:
Now i reached home ler, Very sad. But kept acting strong.
Hais. Think i should go have a rest after a cool bathe.

Goodnights everyone (:
Smiles.

2007-01-09T01:44:00.000-08:00

Today went back home after school's dismissal. School wasnt fine today.
I was punished! Together with some other friends because i did not do my

maths homework. *laughs* My teacher treated us as sec1 kids, and demanded

us to do squats for 3o times. HELLS ! hate him man! made my leg muscles

pulling so painfully man, GRRR!!!
Hmmm.. Geog lesson was fine (: Leon, clement was there to be the joker

of the day. TEEEHHEEES ~
Science lesson was damn bored. Think im gonna fail my physics at the end of

the year or even mid-year. LOLS =x was sleeping all the way during science

lesson. Till the last 5 mins. Stupid teacher says those who sleeps will be held

back for detention till 5pm. So, bobian lor.

Finally, the bell goes! Everyone rushed out of the class. (:
Went home immediately. Wow! damn tired man. It's raining! So didnt went

out. Hais. Raining blues ~

If today was few months ago, my baby would be sleeping beside me during

such cold weathers and i would not be having raining blues man!
Hais. Stop thinking about all these GAL !

Be strong . Life still have to go on.

Hmm, tml going to school late. Hahah (: With clement and Leonard.

YAY! (: Update again tonight.

2007-01-07T02:35:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. Today i found out something bad. But still, i'll stay calm and listen to explainations.

Fcuk lor! Why should i be a fool instead of a happy gal? So stupid of me.

Anyway, i've got lots of time to waste. Weather isit true or fake, we'll see.

Tml going to school again. Hais. sian today going back to my OLD JAIL ! clementi.

Hahs. Fcuk man. Gonna face my fcuking father! Tmlk morning still must see my bapo form

teacher! Sians ! I miss my baby lotslots.

Live without him seem so difficult! time is ticking so slowly man~`

Hate you but love you more !

2007-01-05T19:15:00.000-08:00

School reopen already. Damn bored!

Everyday slack in class. With my buddy leonard (:

Stupid form teacher! So sick of him kuku face!

Pronounce also dunno how to pronounce properly still wanna teach!

Everyday only go school, meet friends.. Then wait for recess.
After recess wait for dismiss. Kuku principal wan gals to tuck in our
blouse until we see the waistband! NO way man!

Hells! Second day of school kana confiscate my shoelace. Nabeh!

And my stupid social studies teacher! This is wad she told me,

" Anqi, theres 3 things i wanna tok abt you. First is yr hair. Second is ur
blouse. Third is yr skirt! " knn!
Kaobeh so much. hahaha! jolene also kana caught!
Sians. Ytd go school feel so cold. Whole body very hot instead!
Think i've got a fever. Got sorethroat and cough too.
Sians ='( CRYS! My baby nort with me already ='( hais. FCUK!
ytd after school, straight away go home slp. Slpt at 3pm and then woke up
at 12am plus. haha ! 9hrs of sleep !
then ningjie called me dunno wad time. Talk talk talk... She ask me come out.
But i not feeling very well so rejected. Paisehs >.<" But i call xbee to acc
her. Hahahah :D think she enjoyed herself ytd bah (:
Okay ! I'm ending here. So long didnt getta see my fellow sis & bros.

Love & Misses to all (: MUACKS!

2006-12-16T04:01:00.000-08:00

jus finish busying at home. Clementi (:
Hai. so bored at home. so quiet.
im so troubled now. ARghs.
later miting aiai at 160. slack lor.
jasmine ginna went to malaysia, baby got sumthng else to do.
left me and aiai :D
nvm. we can live on our own lar.
BORED ! BORED ! BORED !
im wondering when this kinda days are gonna end.

Livin my live Deadly&sadly.
Anqies :(

2006-12-11T04:19:00.000-08:00

tommorow is drawing near. Baby's leaving me far.
i dunno wad to say but i just feel so sad.
so awkward. i would be lost. i wouldnt know wad to do in the morning when i wake up. i`ll miss his voice . miss his laughter, his jokes.
his everything. this time its a long part for us.
will we have fate to be back together again?
Hais. so speechless&wordless.

just wanna say.
Loving&Missing him deep.

2006-11-21T03:30:00.000-08:00

ytd slept around 2plus.
den today woke up at 9 plus check whether baby got msg me mah.
dunt hab leh ... den i went back to slp. hees (:
eleven plus i wake up , baby call me.
den go prepare go mit baby ((:
after that we orhorh a while , he bathe le den go lot1
mit nic and grace. baby ate nasi lemak.
i eat 2 goreng pisang (:
den after smoking , went to food court eat fruits.
watermelon , pineapple , honeydew , rockmelon and papaya.
WEETS* den go to tw off slack slack.
den went to 160 mit aiai and karen.
it was pouring so heavily man ! FCUK !
after eating so full .. smoke le den come up david house (:
baby coming later:DDDD

2006-11-18T02:47:00.000-08:00

today woke up at 9.14am i tink.
so damn tired man.den saw baby's msg. AHAHAS !
shit ! forget to wake up go mit him.was so tired.
at last woke up and prepare.
wore the skirt which i bought that day. yupyup (:
reached baby home.
he told me this : " wear so short ! you're not going to town laidat"
LOL =x like my dad.
heihei. LOLS ! hmms .. den slp for a while
den wake up le, go eat with baby (:
after that, baby acc me go wait for bus.
den i wen to lot1 mit grace around one plus.hurrs *
den went to town by bus. with grace onli.hees (: after walking/shopping around,
bought a long sleeve shirt which is pink/black coloured.
cost me 29 dollar. den bought a banana coloured jeans with heart shaped
pocket behind at 35bucks. so bored at far east, went to cineleisure.
bought a red checkered top which cost 24bucks.
den grace bought famous amos cookie for me (: HHEEES ~ !
den after that took cab back to teckwhye. i brought the pants to
author and suppose to take it back on monday :DDD YUPYUP !
den i mit aiai at 145. ate rojak. EEES ~ smoked, slacked a while ,
went to lot. saw warrior && sebas. LOLS !
asked me the same question again.
but as i rmbed. baby reminded " ANTI DRUG "
so .... YAH !!
den went up to the arcade. WHEEEHEEES ... !!
took neoprints with aiai (:
heihei. i miss baby so damn much lar ! CB !
now , at david hse. slacking. bee slping after a long walk at bugis with jas ginna ,
ziying sun na, weilun gorgor. jasmine , ziying & aiai talking chitchattings like ah ma-s ! HAHAHAHA ! so loud . BLEAHS =p
anyway , enjoyable day (: HAHA ! BABYEE ARH .... miss you lar ...

2006-11-16T01:53:00.001-08:00

today woke up cos of my noisy hp.
around 8 plus. HEIHEI. its baby (:
kinda tired today. but went to mit babybaby.
errs. reach le, slept. den woke up , went to eat.
after eating went to mit grace and aiai at
aiai blk dwnstairs de bus stop.
she took so long to come. HURRS !
den after that took bus to bugis. grace went to lot1.
after shopping around, i bought a skirt,
a short jeans and a bag (:
went to find guozhong too. HAHA !
his shop got a BLACK CAT ! HURR*
so scary ! so furry ! teeehees.
den after that went back cos its so bored ..
baby woke up giving me full of nonsense.
we're msging. he told me i didnt reply when i DID reply.
hells * im going to go mad lar.
but wad to do ? baby left with few days onli.
i jus hafta tolerate. hais ='(
FCUKFCUKFCUK. screwd up life. why must baby leave?
ARGHS! while quarrelling, im on my way home.
aiai acc me home and took a shrit from me.
she looks nice with it.
but she felt uncomfortable. hees >.<"
errs .. den went to lot.
took neos with aiai (: almost all looked nice. HAHA !
den now , at david hse. with aiai. peiqi. jas ginna. david.
bee. gerald. sebas. ah y. weilun. yupyups.
dunno baby coming mah.

2006-11-16T01:53:00.000-08:00

2006-11-13T03:49:00.000-08:00

woke up ard 7 plus at baby house. with baby beside me :]
hees. den went back to slp. 10am woke up again.
slept again then woke up around 1 plus. hees.
baby went to buy breakfast (: while i opened the high school
musical show. heihei
den a while went home.
bathed ,, changed went to lot1 mit yy && jasmine
they all. after that went to 160 and finnally, HERe.
bee house. baby went to blk16.
hurrs ! tired

2006-11-11T22:03:00.000-08:00

slept so early yesterday after quarrelling with baby.

den at last both give in den stop.

finnally i can have a good rest. hees (:
den woke up earli in the morning today. dunno

wanna do wad lehs. so bored lar.

den came back to clementi ?

dad was with two frens. doing their stupid thing.

so noisy lar. talk talk talk.

GRRR ~ so hungry now. mum jus went out.

erhms.

PS : paiseh ar jasmine ginna, ziying sun na, yy aiai.

make you all cant go sintua becos of me. heihei. =p

slacking at home typing here and there.

miss baby so much lar.

hmms. I LOVE RED RED RED.

jus grabbed a RED BURBERRY HANGBAG from my mum

hees :D but she've got no red shirts. thats too bad.

wads today's schedule : BABY'S DAY ! >.<

received jeffrey's letter and tianshun's letter yesterday.

ARGHS!

ending off here (:

anqies.

2006-11-09T02:41:00.000-08:00

now at david hse.
doing nothing. so damn fcuking bored.
everyday do same thing.
ytd wrote letter to elson && jefrey.
dunno they'll reply mah ?
today went to find baby then watch thailand ghost show
together . but b4 we watch ,, we go buy alot food to eat :]
heihei. hmms. . . den after that tired luh ,, slept a while den
went to lot 1 miit ah y && ah han.
den went to eat kfc.
going to be fat le !!! ARGHs ~
need slimming programme.
haha. but i veri greedy one. hmms.
ytd jiejie came yewtee late. so i slept first. woke up also didnt see her. naheh/
errs .. now at david hse whif gerald ,, ah y ,, han .. babybbaby. weilun

2006-11-03T09:12:00.000-08:00

now at peiqi hse. slacking.
jasjas ginna quarrelled whif someone.
same for me. i quarrelled whif baby too.
hais ='( sadsad lar.
nth much to say lor. because of others affect us.
i nth to say le. since sooner or later we must part ,
so why not?
today ton le lor. den tml nort going out.
mayb go find grace dear.
its like so long since i saw darling but nope.
im really sorri for causing her that trouble but i jus wan
others to be careful of everione.
cos everione is wearing a fake mask outside.
even me (: even baby and everione.
but my life's changed alot !
so long since i update my blog.
jus now went to baobei's court. haiyohs,
so gekxim siahs ='(
tink of jeffrey that time . ='( also feel like crying luh.
den talked abt HAIR* hahaha !(*&^%$#
had fun whif jas ginna and ziying sunah. ahaha :DD
hais. fcuking moodless now.
but sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow.
we must fail in order to know.
my visions will clear only after its washed away its tear.
so whu can heal my brokkenn heart and whu can wash
away my tears without brking my heart another time ?
i dunno ! hais. ='(
FANG WO YI KE REN SHEN HUO !

leaving my world tonite.
(: my freedom. youLEFt.
without speaking another more words to me.
i must learn to tink && be strong.

2006-10-30T05:26:00.000-08:00

im now at david's house. doing nth slacking
jus ran out from home.
fcuking cb mother . feel like killing her man !
fcuk her to death ! (:
hais. so troubled.
dunt wan any mother or father lah. cb !
only need frens , and my grandma enuff luh.
hais ='(
thnks my sisters (:
these few days slacking whif my sisters again (:
we're back togetehr again (: hehes.
sdo happy (:
dingding rauks man.
so moodless and restless now.
='( ='(
recently bought lots of accesories.
heels , RED POLKA DOTS EARRINGS .
white && black earrings.
shirts & clothers.
RECENTLY MAD ABOUT RED POLKA DOTS & RED
CHECKRED TOPS (:

trust myself that i will grow up (:
i will learn to grow up (:
wunt be so childish animore :DD

2006-10-20T17:19:00.000-07:00

hmms. im back to clementi here! yesterday.
and it was like. i toss && yurn around my BIG bed.
and yet i cant get to slp. nabeh !
woke up so damn earli today. 5plus.
lucky baby wake up luh.
if nt i`ll be bored to death.
went kbox ytd after eating at 302 whif david & family and ah y.
enjoyed a lil lor. but life's so different from last time.
last time kbox so fun so crowded.
now. everione go kbox also no mood.
one by one going in. hai. ='(
so fcuking sad lah ! hurr !
reached hme around 12 ytd ? after sending baby hme. LOLS =x
den slept around 3 plus. so tired now but cant get to slp.
missing baby lotslotslots.
arghs ! =(
going back to yewtee today ! so uncomfortable here.
later going to mit aiai (:
muacks (: ending here.
bitch ! get out of my way.

babybabybaby-
lUrvE.s` (("v")) Ginna_gal
get this CLEAR! ;
i wanna rely on you FOREVER!

2006-10-18T20:12:00.000-07:00

today is baby's court luh. hais.
happy or sad. he still hafta go.
even if its postponed, sooner or later,
the day that he's going in would arrive.
so i shud get on and accept the facts.
through these 7 months together ,
baby have taught me alot of things.
he didnt pamper me cos he wan me to be independant.
its for my own good.
i can say only aiai and baby is the only ones who REALLY
understands me.
i must be grateful. though these days i've ben suffering,
i have never regret.
though i've done things that i've never done before to a STRANGER* ,
at that moment i really hate 2 of my fren ALOT *
but only for that moment. after that i was soft hearted to them.
hells* i vomited like hell ! fcuk. kept on feeling awkward !
but wad can i do but to obey that person rite ?
if i say back confirm veri ugly de. hais
so i jus did wad he demanded. feeling lots of hatred inside.
jus no one listens to my explaination and that childish kid kept on assuming that
he is alwaes right. whie can ti tok back whif him ? i say his bro also not
him. nw wanna act good isit. wanna act gd ? i can be a gd actress too.
ytd went to 145 drink. whif lotsa pple but found out a piece of bad news.
fcuk it lah. i dunno whether isit i malign baby or isit real.
i hope i wronged him lor. didnt expect it to happen. i tot my eyes were lying to me.
but no. after baby left , i tink i shud stay independant and be good.
dont do anything bad for me luh. everiday holiday also do same thing
de lah. i tink i wunt get to know more people or mix whif other groups around.
mayb living alone ? freak out !!
dunno wad to do lah. screwd up life im leading now. so frustrated.
heart feels whif lots of hatreds , sadness. fearfulness.
i really dowan baby to go in de. if not i`ll have no one to rely on.
if i dun understand anything , i would have no one else to go to.
if im sad, who will REALLY console me whif sweettalks ?!
everi night if i cant get to slp , whu will acc me cm out eat ?
whu will send me sweet msg and make me feel loved and den i go to bed ?
NODOBY except baby. ytd when we're at 160,
my tears nearly rolled dwn. lucky i hold on!
when im in the taxi, my tears burst out ! so paiseh lah.
hais. ='( but when everione's sitting together.
they dont feel happy too. i can see thst everione's dropping their tears
liao. hai. but i wunt drop tears in front of them . later people say
i putting on a fake mask in front of baby.
you wouldnt know wad people's mouth is spilling out.
but baby shud take up the consequences for doing wad he did lor.
why he suffer we all outside also hafta suffer?
these are route from god. we cant choose .
we wouldnt noe wad will happen the next min/sec.
i might even get banged dwn by car tmr?
but the last thing i would like to tell YOU* is

"i hate you but i cannot stop loving you. "i wanna rely on you foreva.
baby

living my life ALONE (:
anqies #
together whif BABY.
my MISSES ; yr LOVES

2006-09-21T04:20:00.000-07:00

heihei. im here to post after a lonq leave. LOL!.
so lonq didnt qet to use com liaos.
hmms. qort a bad news lah.
my dear broke up whif me. arqhs.
cos of some reasons. private && confidential.
wanna noe. come and ask me. yeps.
hais ='( i cried but i noe tears wont help.
i did somthinq which he hate alot. and he sentenced
me to death jus laidat without askinq for my explaination.
hais. i`ll wait for his letter duh.
arqhs. he chose to end our 1o month relationship jus becos
of a small mistake ive made. ='(
we`ve qone thruqh so much obstacle. all forqotten by him.
but also cant blame him nah. its all my fault.
he inside so xinq ku. i outside makinq him worri.
but i dunno which bitch or bastard everiday write letter
to him reportinq abt me. fcuk that person upside dwn and in&out and
round and round*
he/she is jus makinq fool of himself. brkinq a couple up makes him feel
hiqh. hahs :) so silly. nvm. forqet it. its all his choice to believe me or
nort i cant do anythinq. i really really do alot for this relationship luh.
the only thinq i can do now is chanqe myself back to the old
anqi i am and prove him wronq to save back our relationship.
but if i cant, i also cant do anythinq luh!. i`ll stay sinqle. hais.
monday went to sch (: tues sick. stomach crampcramp ! den wed
eye swollen !! arqhs. so didnt qo to sch. today also didnt qo cos i went to
see a doctor norh. den tmr ive qort MC !. yeps. but everiday still mitinq
sillyboi at mac in the morninq. yah!. >.<
anyway , me and david okk luh (: happyhappy. but thruqh this quarrells,
ive seen thruqh alot of true faces !. they see people qo duh.
hells. even the one i trusted most * it really disappoints me.
but lucky ive qort my darlinq & dinqdinq. the one who's by my side.
thouqh nort alwaes whif me. but they're quietly beside me.
and throuqh me&&dear's separation. ive seen thruqh another sister of mine's real
face. hais. whie is all these thinq troublinq me. arqhs.
really fcukinq disappointd. after all these ive learnt that REALLY no one can be trusted!.
hell life im leadinq. must well die. hai. dunno wad more to say.
its really saddeninq to see al these pple. their tail are cominq out man !.

#anqies.

2006-09-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

in school now. qonna dismiss soon.
nothinq to do. hais.
xinq hen fan ='(
blurred visons. confused mind. sad taste of feelinq.
sourness. sadness. sillyness. FCUKING STUPIDNESS !
hais.
baby left. so whie shud i pester him nurh.
i shud leave him alone . his happiness is in his own hand.
i cant do much to him.
forqet it.
mayb i shud qo back to qan.laoqonq that bunch and never to appear
in tw aqain. its okay if my frens hate me.
sorri for hurtinq you quys my frens.
i`ll rmb those happy days toqether.
baby, i noe our olden days wouldnt be back.
so i shud not be so naive.
yah baby's riqht. pple shudnt pamper me too much or
i`ll take it for qranted.
by all means LEAVE ! its okay.
i`ll qrow up and think.
anyqay, thnks for everithinq

2006-09-11T04:54:00.000-07:00

my horoscope for today : Your external and internal worlds are at odds right now ... so don't be surprised if you aren't quite sure whether you want to go out and paint the town red tonight or stay in bed and dig into a long, elaborate novel. If you can get yourself out in public, try to do that. That would be the wiser choice. Being alone may bring you comfort right now, but being among people will feed your soul in a very rewarding way. Sometimes you need to pop out of your shell whether you want to or not

2006-09-11T04:41:00.000-07:00

BLEAHS =p
now at beebee hse. didnt qo to school today.
lol. qek stomachache. too tired cos reached hme
arnd 5 plus this morninq. hahs xD
then slpt till 2.15pm den forqotten that qrace wanna qo fetch me.
when she reached outside sch , she msq mi i say i at hme.
hells* sorry qrace. den went back hme to take my report slip. at clementi hme.
my mum said that my qrandma threw it away by accident. diaos !
damn anqri luh ! den a while went to one4five.
mit baby, zhiwei qorqor they all.
den aiai came (: TEEHEES XD
after that went to book barbecue pit but found out that RC open onli at 8pm.
diaos. HAAHAHA ! den walked back to beebee hse.
on the way, saw han. MUAHAHAHAAS !
den walked toqether. when we at beebee hse dwnstairs , saw a quy veri
quai lan den han qort problem whif him then fiqht.
so panicked, i called weilunqor den his hp cant qet thruqh. den called bee.
ddint answer. den aiai went all the way up to call bee .
Diaos. damn scari luhs ! den after finish beatinq , bee said dont nid follow them de
den walked back. HAHS *
now at bee hse slack luh then qo hme orhorh.
tmr qo sch xD BLEAHS =P

misses. babybaby*

2006-09-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

erhm. jus reached hme. but is 665 yewtee de hme.
nort 69oD haha !
came here jus to play computer. BLEAHs =Pp
jus now went to 3o7 dye black my hair and reborn norh.
teehees XD then aiai also reborn. hhm. quozhonq came too.
whif nic. yupps .
hais. today whole day no mood norh. sian lahs.
qurl shoppinq today ! whole day whif aiai.
den alicia came to mit me too . den we three went to jp toqether
norh. fcukinq sian dere. hahaha !
heihei. den came back to lot 1 saw my lonq lost sister, sohboon.
no lah actually is lonq time no see only.
den wanqzi ask me watch movie whif him. but i didnt.
TEEHEES XD LOLS !
hhm. now playinq frenster && msn.
qtq. take care my frens. XDDD

anqies #

2006-09-07T00:54:00.000-07:00

hhm. chattinq whif my wanqzi now .
while weilun chattinq whif baby.
i quarrelled whif baby .
hais. sian lah . cos of that stupid bah qay lah.
kept on ah shenq ah shenq.
beebee haven wake up .
dunno wanna qo town or nort lehs .
so sians. morninq baby call me , but when i reply
is around 1o plus le. he didnt reply me .
so tired && bored now.

endinq here.
sadded `
wanqzi && qonqzhu !
so lonq since we went back to our palace (:

2006-09-06T13:03:00.000-07:00

today's horoscope :

A petulant or pouting friend ceases to be a burden to you today -- it looks like they've decided to grow up and start acting like an adult. This relationship has been a mixed blessing in your life, and right now might be a good time to decide once and for all how much further you want it to go. Mood swings are normal, but when they continue too long, you have every right to speak up and say enough is enough. Friendships should be a nourishing thing for both parties.

hhm. its 3.58am now. at beebee hse. he like wanna slp le.
waitinq for me to say bedtime story for him. haha ! LOLS !
weilun honqinq my meimei outside.
hhm. later qoinq hme luh .
chattinq whif baby && dylan now. and aiai.
and bah qay. lols.
kept on callinq my ah shenq sao. nabeh !
hhm today reach yewtee hme ,,
ATE ALOT ! veri veri hunqri. hahaha !
my qrandma cook rice for me ,, den qod bro bouqht eqq bread for me
from 7-11 . den qod bro cook maqqie mee for me.
LOL. qonna be a fat piq luh .
bleahs . hhm. tired .
mayb qoinq hme luh (:
nites everione. loves !

2006-09-05T07:26:00.000-07:00

erhms. jus reached hme. hhm.
stickinq the nose pore cleansinq strip on my
nose. and the one for forehead and chin.
arqhs. pimples cominq out soon.
sleepinq at late hours everiday.
today went to buqis whif aiai . veri happy.
two qurls shoppinq. spent alot today.
HAHS * (: but whole day nort belli happy.
while shoppinq , thinkinq of another thinq.
haiyohs * den stomach pain lyk hell !
lucki we stopped for a while & have a drink & we ate
katonq laksa. XDD haha ! aiai order for me.
so qd :DDD
hhm. tmr qoinq back to yewtee lurh. so no chance to
update bloqs or frenster liaos.
heihei. baby forqived me liaos. XDDD
tmr morninq mit quozhonq qo trim eyebrown.
den qoinq back to yewtee put all my baranq baranq norh !
hahas (: den acc baby qo see lawyer.
after that den decide bah. wanna mit aiai ! & baobei hiaohiao too.
today bouqht two shirt. quite alike whif hiaohiao's shirt.
haha ! LOLS =x
hhm. so sian. stupid frenster so laqqie.

hols schedule.
- 5th sep TUES ` buqis whif aiai. mitinq xue er.
- 6th sep WED ` qoinq back yewtee.
sohboon jiejie birthday
trim eyebrown
acc baby qo see lawyer.
- 7th sep THURS ` qoinq town whif jolenejolene nuer XD
- 8th sep FRI ` sentosa whif jiejie && frens.
- 9th sep SAT ` mayb aiai celebrate her birthday
- 1oth sep SUN ` qo saloon dye back hair.
temp reborn hair.

heihei. lorts of proqramme. hope all turns out well (:
qoinq out now. XDD buhbyes (:
aiyah tired. dowan qo lurh.
mummy qo buy food for me XD teehees.
me fat fat fat luh ='(
wanna qo on diet lah !!!
fatty ! >.<
endinq here XD
qd nites everione.
minq tian hui qenq hao XD

2006-09-05T01:59:00.000-07:00

today woke up at 9 plus. ytd slept around 6 laidat.
haiyohs. so tired. plus received a bad news.
all the way bad mood norhs.
but i quess whif aiai around , i`ll be fine and happy (:
den met aiai at mac at 12.3opm norh.
we both went to buqis . TEEHEES XDD
qurls shoppinq.
walk walk shopshop, smokesmoke. eateat.
stomach veri veri pain. hais buay tahan.
even i eat panadol also cannot tahan the pain.
lyk qonna die laidat. summore feel like vomittinq.
plus , sorethroat. hais.
tink im qonna be sick lonq time ! ARGHS *
den shopshop whif aiai norhs. spent so much money.
bouqht 3 shirt. one lace spaqetti , another brown beiqe de tee,
and another shirt same as hiaohiao baobei de :DDD haha !
hhm, den bouqht a hellokitty baq. so cute !
and hellokitty wallet. summore , buy MALBORO !
walk until half way , my 3 yrs ex called me. haha ! his voice is still the same?
low & funni. HAHAHA XDD
den ask for my frenster && msn email norh.
so qlad to received his call =DDD
den after that bouqht thinqs le went to mit xue er.
diaos =_=" she so funni && weird norh.
dowan to talk like veri paiseh laidat. den ask her sumthnq she onli answer
dunno dunno dunno. hahaha ! a bit dulan a bit weird de feelinq.
den i bouqht a shirt for aiai cos her birthday cominq.
yupyups ; now left whif 2 dollar onlil hahah !
hhm , endinq here. now at beebee hse.
playinq computer. update at niqht.

2006-09-04T08:53:00.000-07:00

today came back to clementi.
ytd went to fish prawn at juronq.
haha :D but quite bored lah.
first day ah han so qood siahs.
hais. elson qo back le. hope he`s fine dere.
hhm. ytd fell asleep at beebee hse de sofa`
baby they all play majonq till morninq 7 plus
i tink. LOL =x but baby didnt wake me up !
but he veri qd. put 2o dollar in my baq.
qive me cab fare hme. hhm.
batokbatok. den went to 3o2 meet david norh.
and my dearest AIAI ! muackies.
tmr qoinq to mit a cute qurl xue er. and AIAI ! qo buqis.
teehees XD qonna SHOP SHOP SHOP ! (:
den after that went to lot. walk qo behind lonq john saw
alicia, haohao baobei, ah han , ah john, quozhonq, xbee.
den a while went to mac norhs. den haohao qo back luh,
me , alicia , yy && qrace went to popular. den qo ice lemon tee.
den went hme. quozhonq also qo hme.
reach hme le. jus now talk to eewin && qrace.
so lonq since we talked ! LOLS =x
now talkinq to qrace on fone && msn chattinq whif aiai only.
yupyups;
qdnites. cant slp siahs. ='(
SMOOCHES + HUGGIES *

2006-09-03T11:54:00.000-07:00

today woke up around 5 plus then miit aiai at lot1 mac.
ytd went to OCH . haha ! whif lorts of pple.
and jiejie. DAMN SCARI !
lols. we went to EVERI part of OCH !
i damn fcukinq scared ! arqhs. nabeh !
i dowan qo in de . but they saw later somethinq happen.
AIYOHS *
den today after qoinq mac ,, went to 3o2 coffeeshop !
stomach veri veri pain !!! OUCH ! havinq my stupid monthly period !
nabeh` dunno tmr will come out norts.
cos stomach ache. only can use panadol to donq* my pain @ ='(
hais. xinqku lahs . ARGHS *
now at beebee hse. whif baby. ah qonq , ah han , beebee norh.
bored ! bored *
nth more to bloq. misses to YOU*
received letter from dear lurhs. (: HAPPYHAPPYHAPYY !!
hais . but worried abt sumthnq . HAIS !

2006-08-29T02:05:00.000-07:00

jus now went to weekeonq hse [yy qodbro] ..
hhm. quite fun. mayb can be more fun but cos i dont
know any of them. haha ! ivan veri talkative. LOL
isaac like veri quiet laidat norh. yupps XD
den went to the coffeeshop dwnstairs.
i scold one time vulqar, ivan look at me once.
diaos =_="
AIAI's ISAAC~!! lols!
hahahas !
hais. today didnt meet baby. quarrelled ytd. he KO !
cos drink too much lurh, hais.
two more days to his court date.
realli cant bear cant bear to realli see him qo in laidat.
one by one my frens qoinq in. soon , all will be in lurh.
whie because of title & bros do that ?
heart realli veri pain. veri stress !
many rumours spreadinq around.
many problems runninq throuqh my mind.
realli dunno wad to do . by 31st auqust , my life would
be in a mess i quess.
hais. alwaes quarrell because of stupid thinq.
really veri tired of everithinq. qive me a break man !
holidays cominq. (:
TEEHEES ! XD
nth more to update. moodless ! ='(

2006-08-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

saturday had so much fun whif jolenebabyGOH. haha !
sonia, me, jiayinq, yahui, ninqjie at town.
stupid baby. ask us to shout out birthday sonq to her.
update nxt time (:
takekairse !

2006-08-23T22:32:00.000-07:00

in school now. stupid jus now teacher ask me close the webbie thats
when im in frenster . diaos ?! i alreadi finish my project alreadi norhs.
so lonq ive nort been usinq com. haha !
hais. worryinq abt dear's reply. and yet, ive qort alot of problems
to be troubled whif. why the fcuk is this qoinq on ?!
my sister quarrelled whif beebee aiai and thats nth that's qotta do whif me
lah ? beebee anqri le den wanna find honqzhao problem ?!
i tried veri veri hard to help. but i quess now nth le bah !
veri irritated jus now. kept on msginq me ! waddahells !
arqhs . veri anqri lah.
dear, im waitinq for ur letter impatiently.
thouqh i noe yr answer would be a disappointment for me. hais.
missinq you lots.

babyanqii (:
loves loves !
24 auq.

2006-08-21T17:45:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABY !!

hhm. in school now. finally qet to bloq.
hhm, nothinq much. my days briqhtens up since
17 auqust (:
teehees . ytd stupid xiaofenq forqot to call me
wake up. late for school ! arqhs. lucky xhao baobei
call me. but still , im late. so slack at lot for a while norh.
yupps ; ytd went chalet as well. its baby's chalet.
went dere whif xhao baobei. dylan qor. euqene didi.
haikal. and rayhan. hhms. saw baby (:
happy happy.
today is his birthday ! muack !

2006-08-07T05:29:00.000-07:00

jus wanna spill out everithinq here.
hais ='(
today many sad thinqs happened.
hhm. went to sch as usual. nth much happened
in sch norh. marcus didnt come.
was so bored in class lah. arqhs.
went hme at 2.15pm.
dunno wanna qo sch tmr norts.
national day celebration onli.
hais. when im on the way hme, peiqi called
me. sayinq that my precious baby & davidbro
kana brouqht back by those fcukinq doqs !
my heart dropped. i didnt believe at first.
cos baby msqed me when im in class ='(
he asked me to qo lot1 fasterfaster.
when i tried to rush, i heard this piece of sad news.
i knew i couldnt do anythinq. was cryinq at hme.
after i bathe, make up, i went to 3o7 to mit weilun qor,
beebee aiai, cyn. hais ='(
i`ve tried to be a stronq qirl by nort drippinq any tears
when im outside. and i did it. but my heart was lyk
so down. hais ='(
my baby was still talkinq to me ytd. hais.
realli dunno how to describe my fcukinq feelinqs now.
i jus noe that im so sad. so so so sad. so dwn.
david was still msqinq me in the morninq ='(
waddahells * its so heartpain to hear that they`re inside.
wad to do? cant do anithinq.
when i reached, peiqi still tell me, when they sanq sonqs at
kbox, baby shouted " BABY " !! arqhs !
fcukfcukfcuk. fcuk the law && fcuk it all ~!!
you told me you miss me miserably. i dowan you to miss
me miserably. i wan you to tink of me happily. realli miss those
memories toqether. i wanna hear the cute baby callinq me
baby. that day when you brouqht me to the doctor. when im
sick , when you qave me comfort.

i still love you
even if you dont.
i love you so much
i cant let qo.
i love you im faithful.
i love you too much
i didnt cared how you feel`
you were the best thinq that
happened to me.
i did nothinq wronq why did you
let qo. left me here waitinq
all alone.

i nvr wanna say qdbye.
nvr wanna see you cry.
nvr wanna hold you back animore.
and i jus wanna let you noe that you dont hafta qo.
how can i eva forqet the way you touched me,
hold me, kiss me tenderly. whie did you turn yr
back on me? you noe i need you do bad baby.
all that i can see standinq here whif me
is onli the onli soul within me.
you almost always pick the best time.
to drop the worse line.
you alwaes make me cry,
everiday at niqht.

den they celebrated niv birthday at a
blk dwnstairs. hais ='(
its suppose to be a happy one whif their boss
at kbox. whie did it turn out this way ?
nobodi knows. no one expects !
elson, baobei, shaun, daotonq, ah han,
nic, hai qui , his qal was havinq a qreat smile
i quess i smiled too.
but it was all fakesmiles that i qave.
the sadness jus cant fade away.
the memories whif baby && david is rewindinq in
my mind. to and fro. hais. ='(
tink this is the onli words that can describe my feelinqs
now. fcukup life. so screwdup !
aniway, jus pray that they`ll be okay.
may qod bless them !
missinq them lots, in the name of baby.
XDD tryinq veri hard to cheer myself up.
quarrelled whif baobei also.
dunno wads up lah ! fcukfcukfcuk.
alreadi so stress up. but yet. hais !='(

2006-08-06T07:00:00.000-07:00

jus browse throuqh my folder (:
saw some old pics (:

me and xiaohao baobei qor.
qrace nd me (: danny and william (:
me whif all my sisters (:
durinq my birthday celebration XD
teehees ! happy memories.
the day out at far east XD
the cutest couple (:
my future husband to be (:
jeffreyqohwenshuo + chuaanqi.

jus finish bathinq. reach hme around 9.1opm jus now.
stupid father ! come hme alreadi kaobeh kaobu.
ask me remove make up , qo bathe den qo slp.
who cares abt him man ! aniway, he also nort at hme
le (: hhm. today woke up around 1o plus.
baobei woke me up lah ! DIAOS =_="
ytd wait for his call until slp. muahahahas =pPp
veri veri tired mah. den he tot i qo ktv.
haha. BAICHHI :DDD
den today woke up he say i tio spot. wake up earli
also cnt ? aniway is baobei ownself woke me up de
lorh. and im mitinq qrace at lot at 1.oopm at lot.
but she haven wake up . den darlinq call me. ask me qo
mit her at lot at 1.3opm. i reached lot around 1.2opm+
she still say i late. DIAOS =_=" is she reach earli norh.
when im on the way to lot, met jiajinq at juronq mrt.
haha ! he've chanqed alot lorh. haha XD
he say ive qrown tall (: FIRST TIME !! pple say i qrown taller.
teehees xD den baobei so stupid. say he acc his mum qo
market. den ask me i wan smoke or nort.
den he call me say he ask dylan pass me ciqs at 1st storey.
ask me qo dwn. when i qo dwn saw baobei lah ! RETARDED !!!!
den he saw his two frens. his frens tot i his stead ! MORE RETARDED.
den after smoke , went up norh. yupp;
den slack whole day at lot.
baby actually cominq de. but in the end nvr.
actually i qoinq to see SWEET* put tattoo . but at last nvr qo.
baby say he veri sian dont feel lyk qoinq. den he stayed at tw hme.
actualy i qoinq over to take smth from him. but at last didnt qo.
hais. so sian whole day at lot dunno do wad.
den went dwn to suqarcane . baby ask me qo batok ?!
diaos =_=" its lyk so late le ??!! and even say he qib me
cab fare hme . but i dowan. den D**** actually cominq.
but cos he and darlinq quarrell so at last he acc baby norh.
yupp ; den went behind lonq john. smoke whif
peipei sister (: jasmine dinqdinq. ninqjie darlinq . peiqi sister.
SO HAPPY to see all my sisters. but nort all turn up today.
xueqi honey laoqonq didnt come. everiday pei qinqshun durhs.
den aiai went to pei SWEET* and weilun put tattoo.
after that i went hme norh. sucha borinq day. XD
tmr nort cominq out :DD stay at hme be quai kia.
if nort confirm kana naqqed by mother durh.
so i auto stay at hme. she confirm shocked den. HAHAHA =pPp
nth more to write . XD

qdnite to everione (:
muackmuacks. XD slp tiqht.
tmr wake up earli. qo sch.
tiredtiredtireds*

anqii (:

2006-08-05T08:18:00.000-07:00

darlinq , if you tink that i really believe beebee.
den i also qort nothinq to say lurhs.
you shud noe im alwaes behind you de.
no matter wad you said abt me. i alwaes treat it
as i nvr hear or i'll qo confront you ryt?
but everitime when you told me you didnt say
that. i'll believe you. didnt i ?!
den whie are you suspectinq my trust for you.
if everione leaves you. i wont'
we're toqether foreva okays XD
see yah ! PIG ! everitime slp.

2006-08-05T07:18:00.000-07:00

erhs. came to bloq here.
jus reached hme. haha :DD
erh. my baobei asked me to bloq.
diaos =_=" he veri kaypo !
dunno where he qoinq later leh ?!
ytd after sch. went hme.
packed baq. brinq clothes. went to
lot find my baobei , elson , aiai !
yuppyupp; lied to my mum sayinq that
i`ve qort a camp. haha !
ytd ton whif quozhonq ahqurl. elson ohoh.
baobei. playqirl aiai YY jiejie.
LOLS =x veri fun norh. stupid ahqurl kept on
usinq the computer lahs !!
den we went out around 3 mid to eat.
cos veri hunqry. but when i reached there ,
felt so full. cos of the food smell dere.
STUPID lah. baobei's hse there so many DOGS !
knn. all damn scary ! bark so loud !
hahaha ! elson ohoh veri funni.
ytd was the VERY first time he treat me so qd norh.
nvr scold me or say me. still paly whif me.
hahahaha ! diaos =_="
today he still help me take my baq =pPp
ytd quozhonq ahqurl piqqybaq me a short while to
baobei hse. hm. elson ohoh kept on di siao aiai.
make her damn irritated. but at last still a fun day .
cos theres no conflicts mah XD
today stupid elson use his STUPID head to banq onto
my head ! fcukinq pain lah ! knn.
then i wanna take pillow beat him he kept on sayinq
sorry. hahahahah :DDD
erh. nth much liao norh. today went to lot ?
den slack slack slack onli norh. veri anqri whif someone.
HAHAHA =p
den went to one4five. baby say he at lot.
den went to lot a while find weilun qorqor whif aiai & jeannete.
LOL =x baby called me " B-A-B-Y ~ !! "
but like enqsiew onli nah. we`re lyk normal fren norh (:
at least we're still frens :DD
den went back to yewtee house to take my biq baq,
and went back to lot. aiai wanna mit me.
den walkinq to kbox toilet, baby talkinq to the kbox people.
then he make me head ! yy aiai dulan =Ppp
after smokinq, baobei came i tinked, yupp ;
den a while qo hme lurh norh . HAHAHAHA :DDD
enjoyed my CAMP ! LOLS !

2006-08-03T06:17:00.000-07:00

hhm . today went to lot.
wait for baobei so lonq lorh.
damn dulan.
slack at lot whif ahhan , wilson, wenhui,
ah john, quozhonq. laidat norh.
den waited for baobei.
den he came around 6 plus. haha
i bluff him i qoinq hme.
diaos =_=" den went arcade.
stupid kiki , ahjohn & xiaohao !
three pple pull me ! TORTURE !!!
teeheees xD today veri happy (:
received dear's letter aqain ?
so fast norh ! he wrote it on 29 july ?!
diaos. few days onli nehx. haha !

dear wrote this :
to my dearest laopo,
dear im fine inside. friends so many (: today receieved yr letter,
very happy sia, today also first time yr sister kaixin write to me, she say she still fine outside, dear how are you outside le. david help you unbaned from lot so qood dear. outside must quaiquai hor, i'm qlad to hear that you seldom pontant le. this is my 8th letter to you le. plus QRP de altoqether 1o letter, if you receieved less than 1o means some qet rejected, because i cannort write your korkor name in the letter. will kanna reject, haiz sian sia, just finished my lunch, dear i at inside eat alot le, one day eat about 2o piece of bread =) many hor, Bobian i wan biq size ma =) you outside qot eat many many ma, so thin le still wan jian fei haiz yo, you so thin thats y you play the super top dancer will whole body blue black la =) dear i miss the days we spent toqether lehz, dear tell you somethinq important, mayb you can come visit me lehz, i tryinq my best to talk to the staff here lo, realli miss you like siao liao, dear i now tryinq my best to qo for schoolinq, hope can lo, you must study hard hor, dear if my request is qranted, you can come around october 2oo6, laopo don't worry i will not fiqht de, i say october 07 means oct 07, i won't tamba de, 18 mth of loneliness for you and me, is enouqh le, i realised my mistake and for your sake i`ll chanqe, really love you alot lehz, haiz, 18mth toqether, this will be the last one, when i`m out i`ll make sure you will be the happiest princess on earth, i wont let you feel lonely anymore, hope you son't break your promise, the main reason why i wan you to be clean till i'm out is because i dowan a 2nd hand laopo, you sent me the picture the staff will keep but sometimes can take a look at my beautiful laopo. dear you always at teckwhye do wat. i very jealous sia, see my friend wan release, haiz laopo without you in my life, i really dunnoe how to carry on, ur always there to encouraqe me, i really love you alot laopo, i inside finqernails lonq le must cut myself haiz cut le also not nice de, dear everytime i eat apple i will think of you, when i pei you qo fairprice buy sushi, all those memories will be back in october 2oo7, i`ll treat you million times better de, i miss you. wow dear, you still remember last year june, i and they all play the super top dancer ar ? haha fun hor, den that time you still qd qirl, never smoke, now lehz, haizyo " AHLIAN", dear no matter where you qo, or what happen to you or me, you must be stronq, don rely on others le, trust nobody, i really worry for you alot lehz, laopo i`ll be by ur side for the rest of my life, after this stupid 18mths, dear, really hope you can wait till october 07, i`ll make you my wife, you are the only qirl that is suitable to be my wife, i wanna marry you too. i want you to cook many many marcoroni for me, cut my finqernails, wash my clothes, iron my clothes, jus like my wife, nothinq can stop me from lovinq you, but i can't force you ti love me. i love you this lifetime. dear you must be patient waitinq for my letters , sometimes slow , sometimes fast, but i`ll rite all my letter to you de fanq xinq. dear you outside quai hor, don let yr dear worry for you, take qood care of urself, realli need you alot sia, anqi da ren, without you i`m qoinq crazy, i at inside use exercise to de-stress. feelinqs for you will never fade, when i`m out, i`ll work extra hard to support you and i`ll never ever let you feel lonely anymore, just try ur best to wait, as lonq as you happi, im happy too. really afraid that you will take the wronq step forward and reqrat for ever, think before you do. don't let anybody take advantaqe on you, and don't do thinqs that dui bu qi wo hor. i trust you alot but dont disappoint me. i will rite full full de. dear help me send reqards to all my bro and send reqards to david, tell him thanks for takinq care of you. and tell qerald tell him we all miss him, and wan to qo sentosa with him when we`re out =) dear still remember that time we qo swimminq at cck swimminq complex ? i piqqyback you. so fun man, haiz really miss those memories we had, laopo i somfirm wont fiqht de. you dont worry abt me. jus concentrade on yr studies, i can't afford to lose you, my heart belonqs to you, i rite this letter on 29 july dunnoe when den you`ll receive, dear i`ll behave myself de, hope you qo to sch everiday, and don't qo home so late hor, ghost festival cominq le hor, you qo home late not sscared mehz, ur house there de lift so eerie le, qo home early hor, dear wo hen xianq ni le, i still have about 14 mths more to qo sia, will you really wait for the day when i can come out? one day i`ll make you my wife, believe me, dunnoe wad to rite leut i will rite full full de, anqi jeffrey hen ai hen ai ni, ni noe ma? dear dunnoe whether ur parents or mayb you, will accept me as ur husband =) i`ll always love, care, worry and miss you, everyday and niqht, i`ll be out soon, jus tolerate the pain, sadness, and lonliness, i`ll soon be out to meant back all those scars. i love you 4 ever i realli meant it, take care cos i care. wo , wu wen shuo ai cai an qi yi bei zi, anwenqishuo A.L.A.P ! muackss !

ended (:
hhm. im veriveri happy. teehees XD
dear veri wuxim. he kept on tryinq to
talk to the staff. jus to see me.
hhm. really felt so quilty. didnt behave myself
outside. i`ll really try to chanqe !
ANWENQISHUO ! muackss.

qoinq to bed soon lurh.
niqhts everione (:

2006-08-02T05:57:00.000-07:00

hhm. i miss YOU*
miss me okays XD
muacks !
one day of nort seeinq you is like
one year of nort seeinq you.
AINI`

2006-08-02T02:54:00.000-07:00

ban la ban la ban la !
i didnt start all those scoldinqs first lorh !
make thinqs clear first.

2006-08-02T02:30:00.000-07:00

beibei darlinq ,

i now you cant forqet him easily.
like i said , all these takes time.
if you really wanna forqet, forqet it all !
dont leave any lil drop of memories in yr
mind okays. but of you really cant do it.
continue waitinq. i`ll be supportinq you durh.
yah. we`re livinq our own life. be ourself for
who we are. we shouldnt chanqe for ppl.
the way we dress is our own probs. they wanna
comment. ask them comment on themselve first.
they wanna say we lork jus say norh.
as we`re clear, wad are we scared abt ?
rumours ? aiyah. even if there's rumours, also a while
only . people also will tired one mah. wait till they
ownsel kana their rumours liao then they`ll understand
our feelinq. the way qirls dress is not lork lorh.
arbo they expect us wearinq a t shirt and bb short arhs ?!
SIAOS ! thats totally out man ! omq !
dont make me puke. ahahas.
as for bee , i tink its betta to let nature take the course lorh.
see when he`ll forqib you. slowly will de lah.
den abt that quy. let him spread wad he wanna spread bah.
he once dote you so much you shouldnt hate him.
mayb theres misunderstandinq between you and that quy.
im sure when he calms down he`ll listen to yr explaination.
dont worry so much okays ! XD

2006-08-01T23:56:00.000-07:00

today went to sch norh .
veri tired. hahaha :DD
VERY VERY TIRED !
ytd talk to my baobei till veri veri lonq.
my mummy & daddy didnt come hme.
i tink they quarrelled bahs.
i qort my whole freedom at hme.
but stupid ! qort my stupid qrandmother!
knn =x
arqhs ~`!! nvmnvm. ytd nice chat norh.
veri funny lah baobei. hahaha ! DIAOS =_="
FCUK ,, my dad jus came hme. okok.
continue whif wad i said. hhm .
chat till veri lonq le. i look at my hp !
its only 1 plus norh ! hahahaha ! talk until
two plus den i tired ler, so i went to slp norh.
baobei also went back to slp !
KAOBEH LAH MY MOTHER & FATHER !
knn. behind me ! kaobeh so much !
cheebye. hope my father qo out banq by car.
knn. if i`d noe earlier , i would have qo out !
DOWAN STAY AT HOME !!!! SO SIAN !
SEE HIS FCUKING FACE ! that fcukinq bastard !
hope he qort aids faster die lah ! dont come hme la !
qo find his other qirl lah. come hme kaobeh kaobu.
not fit to be my father. cheebye !
after sch ,, now at hme lah ~``
nt qoinq out ! dowan play com le lah ,,
at livinq room still must see his face !
betta qo inside the room !

2006-08-01T07:25:00.000-07:00

well , sumthnq bad happened aqain?
waddahells . i jus off my com.
hafta on it aqain. fcuk la.
cos someone baotoh to another person.
say i put his name here.
so hafta delete away.
anyway , forqet it. it isnt a biq matter too!
at most nxt tym dont write his name lah.
no need talk until so fierce riqhts.
diaos =_="
wanna slp liao lah ! dont MAKE my day BAD !
fcuk off !

2006-08-01T05:34:00.000-07:00

waddahells ?! darlinq tot i ........... to ...... ?!
fcuk lorh ,, whie is these rumours spreadinq
around ?! EXCUSE ME LAH ! im still clean ok !
hahah ! darlinq you retarded, david too naive.
he dont noe me well so he tot i .... lorh ,,
diaos =_=" i qort no comments lah ,, cos its rumours.
its laidat one lah. pple like to talk let them talk lorh.
or else i ask them qo hospital whif me check lah ,
BET one thousand dollar lorh ! hahah !
hhm ,, today whole day moodless lorh. went to lot
actually meet xiaohao baobei durh. budden ,
qort smth on. so he went off. and i duno whie beebee aiai
anqri whif me lah ?! i also nvr do him anqri ?!
cant be bothered too. cos i`ve did nth wronq rytes ?!
den went all around walkinq ,, slackinq whif huiyi .
den my dearest playqirl YY jiejie came :DDDD
den we went walkinq ,, chattinq. she share her happiness
whif me. and im happy for her too XD
but as for me ,, im sad ?! so she also lend a listeninq ear&
console me. den we walk walk ,, LOT 1 IS SO BORING LA!
didnt even see one soul lorh ! hahah !
no mroe pple le ,, qo le also scared arh . tmr not cominq out
le , come out also no yi yi . XD
after that we both veri sian , den i say qo hme norh ,
we went different ways , i took 19o to panjanq to wait for 184 ,
den reached panjanq. called qraace to chat ,,
NICOTINE LEVEL LOW !!!! den went all th way back to CC aqain?
diaos =_=" i nth to do le. bleahs =pPp
den reached dere , smokysmoky , den i msq baobei . miss him miss him. hahahhas :DD den he ask me qo one6zero. hhm ,, surprised ?
shocked that someone who lies to me was dere ?!!
LOLS ,, nvm . i saw xiaohao baobei , elson ohoh , quozhonq qurl ,
weilun qorqor ,, den i veri happy ! was so deliqhted !
we joked around. they so funny (: i also felt veri happy.
den waited for my DA XIAO JIE darlinq ! knn !
fcukinq lonq lahs ?! hhm ,, darlinq's life is like mine alreadi.
slowly slowly our life has become so screwd up ?
she`ve qort lots of prob . i hab mine too .
hhm ,, den a while ,, i play whif hiaohiao baobei & weilun qorqor
dey all den went hme lurh. STUPID lah , elson make my
bracelet spoil ,, nvm . find one day qo buy another one aqain !
hahahahha XD sians sia. now at hme. FINNALY!
i realised how important my house is !
a comfortable place where i can slp anywhere ?!
my room ,, my sofa ?! my toilet ? hahaha JOKIN lahs ,,
but sumthnq cropped up my mind ,
my family qort some probs ,, not able to say here.
PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL !

msq to my darlinq . [beibei]
beibei darlinq , you dont worry .
dont run away from yr probs .
you love him ,, you dont hate him.
its jus that you dunno how to cope
with yr feelinqs unless you fell for another
quy. dont keep yrself alone at hme.
come out. talk & play ,,
you`ll feel betta. really . i`ll be dere for you
when you need me. if sometimes i also no mood ,
den bobian norh =pPp haha !
i noe how you feel now. its lyk
you dunno how to face the TWO* of them
one is because of that day. another is because of
yr feelinqs . you`re confused . and sad that he
iqnored you. you wished that he`ll be dere whif you aqain
like how you quys did riqht?
dont worry too much , let nature take the course.
like wad i`ve told you, we shouldnt let quys defeat
us so easily . dere`re many more quys betta outside.
qet over HIM* like how you qet over yanq.
believe me, trust me, you can do it.
and me & that quy is only frens le .
jus for yr infomation okay. anythinq ,, jus call me,
my hp 24 hr on . but see whether you can bomb me
wake up in the middle of the niqht or not norh , BLEAHS !

love ya beibei !
enen & beibei ` DARLINGS FOR LYFE *
fcuky LIFE ,, screwd uplife enen ;
mrsqoh.
dinqdinq tonq forever.

ps to everione : cherish the peeps by yr side before they leave you,
once they leave ,, you`ll reqret . dont say you wont ! at least in yr heart ,, you WILL feel a lil of reqrats ! so cherish everione whos by yr side.
dont lie to yr frens cos you miqht nvr noe will they leave you or not.
its betta to admit yrself than to let yr frens find out.
once they left , you miqht be lost , they miqht turn back , but thinqs miqht not qo to the past like how close you all can be (: MY ADVICE TO EVERYONE :DD

my horoscope for today : Don't be surprised if your curiosity gets the better of your sense of propriety now.

There are going to be a lot of messages coming at you today -- and many include some interesting ideas. Your brain is getting extremely hungry for stimulation right now, so don't be surprised if your curiosity gets the better of your sense of propriety. But don't let other people's expectations or hang ups get in the way of you feeding your mind and seeking inspiration. Delve into the issues that interest you most now. Phone calls, emails and face to face meetings need to start happening.

2006-07-31T06:52:00.000-07:00

talked to my sillyboi jus now.
jasonjason. muahahahs ,,
hesuddenly msqed me ?! diaos .
den called me.
chatted . veri fun. ahah !
he damn funny. lols .
he said he saw me that day when i
qo westwood sec. DIAOS =_="
hhm ,, babybaby [CBT] dunt sad lurh ,
i`ll be there quietly by yr side.
even if you need someone ,,
i`ll be riqht beside you ,, quietly .
jus beside you,, i wont talk or disturb you.
i wont be yr listeninq ear cos i noe you
keep all yr troubles only to yrself.
or i`ll lend you a shoulder to lie on ,
cos i noe you wunt shed a tear !
muackies.

2006-07-31T02:35:00.000-07:00

today i can say im a independant qurl bahs ,
stay at hme alone.
none of my sisters or bros or people i need are
not whif me. so wad can i do but to cry alone ?
hais. really dunno wad im doinq. wad im thinkinq.
havinq menstruation. stomach hurts alot.
my fever hasnt qone dwn. really need someone
to rely on now. but yet im all alone.
sometinq happened to darlinq. but its related to
the one i hate. quess i cant help much too. later PEOPLE
say i kaypo. i jus hope that nth will happen to darlinq
bah , thouqh i wunt be happy from today onwards ,
but i`ll try to find my happiness alone. no matter
how hard , by hook or by crook, i`ll be happy. and I WANNA
be happy ! i hate to be sad . i dunt wanna be sad.
tmr qoinq to sch , after sch ,, cominq hme. wunt be
qoinq out lurh . MIA for some time bahs .
miss my baobei xiaohao , my qanlaoqonq tianhua,
my aiai. my darlinq. my dinqdinq. and all my sisters !
i miss weilun qorqor , willy , melvin , wenhui , qrace.
i miss everione . I MISSS MY DEAREST LAOGONG
JEFFREYGOHWENSHUO !
my nicotine level is so low !! arqhs .
waddahells , lucky my parents qo out le ,
my jiejie qurt ciqarettes (: teehees XD
hhm ,, im qonna chanqe my password soon.
=') bored lahs ,, jus received a call from elson ?
waddaFCUK is he doinq ?! he & quozhonq beat
joel ?! WALAO! damn dulan whif them lahs ..
forqet it ! moodless day today.
nice sonqs : lian ren wei man [S.H.E] , ni dao di ai shui ,
MEI YOU REN KE YI JIAO NI BAO BEI , bie shuo wo
de yan lei ni wu suo wei , ni hai ai wo ma , quan huai fanq
shi , denq dai.

2006-07-31T00:10:00.000-07:00

knn.
no mood to qo out lah.
cheebye ! slackinq all day at hme norhs.
hais ='(
feel so fcukinq sad.
feel like cryinq.
AGAIN ?
whie happy thinqs alwaes come first?
den bad thinqs come. HAIS ='(
but i`d alwaes tell myself to be stronq de.
talkinq to qrace now. jus reach hme from
sch . not qoinq out this time round ! really !
='( SAD SAD !
anqry also ! ARGHS ! received bad news !
whie alwaes when im in sch ,, i received bad news,
when i need a shoulder to cry on !
my aiai's not whif me ! FCUK it all OFFF !!!!!!!!!
I HATE ME FCUKING FATHER !
he's a bloodddddddy arrrrssssseee ! he sux sux sux sux !
same like another quy !

sometimes i dont wanna see you,
the fact that i see you,
you didnt see me !

messaqe to qurls .
qood quys are :
- quys who cares alot for you [ not fake care , they miqht be actinq up a show in front of you , so be EXTRA careful ]
- quys who qives in everythinq to you
- quys who can qive up his own life because of you
- quys who DOESNT FLIRT around
- quys who are there from you when you need them
- quys who DONT lie to you !
- quys who doesnt spend qurls money. [ unless really urqent ]
- quys who dont take yr PRECIOUS thinq away !
- quy who DONT slp whif many qurls .
- quys who rmb yr birthday , the memories you had toqether !
- quys who rmb yr qd points NOT yr bad point !!!!!!

anqii # .
copirited !

2006-07-30T06:43:00.000-07:00

hhms , today woke up ,, reply deardear's letter lorhs ,,
wrote two lonq paqes of letter to him .
so touched of his letter (:
he`s the only one who`s so understandinq norhs ,
hhm . after writtinq ,, qrace called me ,,
den i went to bathe , after that i chanqed ,, make up
den went to lot1 . so sians .
den saw xiaohei , smoke lurh , den slack lorhs
a while qo find baby .
den went back to lot 1 meet marcus , joel , peizhen ,
hweelinq baobei. hahahha ! we played super top dancer.
today ;ast day lurh . so sad ='( ARGHS !
but at least we still qurt play lahs (: teehees .
teenaqes jus love to waste money on stupid thinqs.
bleahs . hais . SIANS !
when i was abt to qo ,, baby say he reachinq. DIAOS =_="
so cnt mit norh ,, now at hme lurh . nth to do.
tmr qoinq sch. sians ! tired. GIDDY !
fivefivefive (: MUACKES!
niqhts everione (:

2006-07-29T08:41:00.000-07:00

kiss on the ear
"i'm horny"

*kiss on the cheek
"we're friends"

*kiss on the hand
"i adore you"

*kiss on the neck
"we belong together"

*kiss on the shoulder
"i want you"

*kiss on the lips
"i loveyou" or "iwant you"

*holding hands
"we can learn to love each other"

*a wink
"Let's get it on"

*slap on the butt
"you`re mine"

*playing with the ear
"i can't live without you"

*holding on tight"
don't let go"

*looking into each other's eyes
"let's get romantic"

*playing with hair on head
"tell meyou loveme"

*arms around the waist
"i love you too much to let go"

*laughing while kissing
"i am completly comfortable w/you"-

2006-07-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

SICKSICKSICK ='(
fcukinq xinqku lor. knn =x
ytd in sch felt a lil sick. but not veri sick lah.
den went hme bathe , qo out. den at niqht ,
i felt a bit cold but i touch my forehead , neck.
i was so hot ! arqhs . den went hme norh !
waddahells ? actually runninq out durh . but i fell
asleep. really veri xinqku. used 3 blackets lah ?
really veriveri sick lor. den i took the initiative to
msq someone ? haha ! quess my sickness make me MAD !
haha ! diaos. today morninq woke up baby brinq me qo
see doctor (: stupid qrace lah ! wait for her sister so lonq.
den after i see doctor , rain ! veri heavily !! waddahell !?
i veri veri veri fcukinq cold alreadi norh ! nabeh !
still rain ! knn. veri xinqku lorh . den after a while ,
i met aiai . felt better abit lurh. mayb cos i saw her bah ?!
LOL =x no lah , cos i took my medicine lurh , so my
fever qone dwn lorh (: yupp ; den after that went to lot1
whif aiai . haohao baobei also there. whif qerald , elson ohoh ,
they all lorh ! hhm . veri bored lah . wait wait wait . KNN !
at last tell me nvr come lot1 ! damn dulan . but at last still
called .... ask .... where is .. ! hhm . den jus reached hme norh !
qurt a feelinq that i`ll received dear's letter ! MUAHAAHHA !
REALLY REALLY received lorh ! DIAOS =_="

dear wrote this :
laopo da ren ,
dear arh, this is my 7th letter to you le, and i received about 6o over of yr letters =) so how's life outside, veri happi to know that you never pontant le. you outside must try ur best to concentrate on your studies, cannot qo lot1 also nevermind ma, still qot alot places can qo ma =) sian, i inside eat , sleep, missinq you, waitinq for ur letters, play basketball lo. very sian sia, dear, you wait for a few more months, MAYBE can see me at around october 2oo6 =), maybe only i'm still tryinq my best, u horz, outside quai yi dian la, i few days aqo received some letters from others tellinq me that you outside very nauqhty, drink beer la, very stubborn la, doinq thinqs that i don't like la, haizz, dear i really don wish you turn bad, i feel so useless when ppl tell me my laopo this& that, hope u`ll chanqe, it's because of me, than you will become like today, really hope you realised ur mistake, and don do it aqain.
dear , realli hope taht you "wont qet drunk when i'm not around" dear you my laopo lehz, you outside, i inside, u druk how? who to take care of you, anythinq happen to you how? DEAR i realli worried alot for you, hope u`ll listen to me, play but have ur limits, i read ur letter, heard that you vomited abt 6 times, my heart realli hurts alot, dear at least tink about me, before you do anythinq, remember "don qet drunk when i'm not around" dear really sorry for makinq you suffer, i know that i'm wronq. But i need you to be stronq, there's no qrills or walls, that could make me spirit falls and theres no cell or dorm that can stop my love from qoinq on, Althouqh i may not be there, but in my heart i always care. theres never a day, i let you fade away, i love you dear, theres only you in my heart and i hope we`ll never part, at niqht when i close my eyes and recall back, those time we`re toqether, i can't 4qet, you were always there when i'm stress, you were also there when i'm sad, you've always tried ur veri best to prevent me from turninq bad, But aqain and aqain i`ve make you sad, doinq thinqs that you never expect. But now with you by my side, i will keep those promises i`ve promised u. dear i really miss you alot lehz, anqi, wenshuo zhen de hen xianq ni !!! dear we all fine inside, some of us qot fiqht but never tamba, dear i never fiqht horz, really really, you must trust me, if anythinq happen to me, i will tell you de , promise , i wont lie to you de, hope you won't lie to me also, Dear i really trust you alot, hope you won't disappoint me, i inside qood lo, so many friends inside , you de chi , you de shui, not bad lo =) But without you i really can't qo on, as now i`m writtinq this letter, i also veri sad, jus hope that "you won't qet drunk when i'm not around" WOW, dear you qot new friend arh, what brenda and what natasha =) i've received the birthday card le, Veri happy sia =) and ur photo and many of urs letter. i received the birthday card on 15th july. Very happy sia, dear i miss you alot lehz, HOW !!! dear you dream that i qot homeleave then don't care about you izzit, i pormise when i qo out i`ll treat you million times better, and pampers you like how i treat my most precious person in my life. Study hard. dear you last time never cherish me, qive me attitude, scold me , i also don't mind, Because i really love you alot, i`ve always try my very best to tolerate your princess attitude, just to wish that our relationship will last lonqer, when i`m out, i`ll try my best to make you the happiest person on earth, and meant back all those scars, left in ur heart, no one can ever replace ur place in my heart, i meant it. times past so fast , we toqether for 8 months le, theres so much ups and downs, and i`m qlad that ur still with me, must rmb you still have a ai ni de laoqonq in rtc, so behave well, i love you my dear. be patient waitinq for my letters, sometimes slow , sometimes fast, but i`ll rite to you de, won't write to other qal la, Siao, i also tionq xim you lehz =) dear, in jus a few months , i`ve chanqe alot , in size =) and in brain, i become more clever le hor, and my enqlish also very tok konq hor =) but chinese die lo, really very xinqku cannot see ur beautiful face, for so lonq, haiz ya, i very wuxim horz, rite so lonq and nice, hand very cramp lehz, but for your sake, hand cramp also nvm la, one month rite 2 time nia, DEAr I WONT FIGHT de, don worry, i won't tamba de, wont let you wait so lonq de, i miss you dear, you sent me the picture , the staff will keep. but i can qo take a look sometimes de lo, remeber what you promised me hor, MUST be "clean" till i'm out hor, i don wan 2nd laopo, don break those promise you promised me, i`m proud to have you by my side, supportinq me, care for me, and stop me from doinq case. only you can stop me from doinq case. even my family members also cannot. in ur next letter , tell me exactly how you qot banned from lot1 and who baned you. need any help ask me sister and johnson ok.. and tell elson they all thanks for the birthday card i miss them too, dear hope you`ll be loyal waitinq for me, 18th months will past, jus tolerate the pain for the time beinq, i will be out soon. thanks for the exercise book, i qo out pay you back =), ur pocket money is for you to buy thinq eat, not buy thinq for me, don waste ur money for me le, remember what i told you? i will never use ur money de.. i already very quilty le, come in, throw you alone outside, it's enouqh le, i`ll qive you thousand times better of happiness when i`m out, shi ni de jiu shi ni de, bu shi ni de jiu bu shi ni de. i want ni shi wo de forever =) try ur best to wait. take care of urself, cos i really care for you. "wenshuo ai anqi yi bei zi" muacksss. nothinq qonna chanqe my love for you my dear princess.
from : anWENqiSHUO
a.l.a.p

lols ! happy after readinq it. but my fever like cominq back aqain lurh ?
feelinq damn cold now. FCUK !
forqot to take my medicine siahs ! waddafcuk lah !
knn ! hhm , endinq here, takinq my medicine den let my
sis use com lurh (:
niqhts everione. missinq you !!!! muacks !
thnks for today (:

2006-07-27T05:08:00.000-07:00

today was fcukinq bored lahs ?!
went to sch late =x
cos i went to beauty world eat breakfast whif
joel . muahahas (:
reached sch , hafta clean the damn canteen.
but i was playinq . haha ! whif joey .
lynette & cherrie also came late (:
we all cleaned && play whif the water & soap;
LOLS =x 9.oo went baq to class norhs .
enqlish period. den form teacher asked me wad happen
to me . haha ! LOLS ! i said nothinq .
she say dont make it [cominq late] as my habit.
i said ok . YAY :DDD this week i went to sch everiday.
quai hurrs ?! reached class realised that natasha didnt
come . diaos =_=" marcus leonq ALSO ! knn !
hmphs * den after enqlish , went recess .
leonard treat me eat , donqhuat treat me drink (:
BLEAHS =pPp went recess whif joel , lynette && cherrie.
yupsyups ; den sian lorh . after recess maths period.
i hide in the toilet for 1 period. which is 1 hr. whif yahui (:
hahaha ! SKIPPED maths lesson . bleahs !!
den faster rush baq to class . lucky mdm liew haven come !
den science , aftr science , project werk .
sian lorh . den went hme liaos. reach home , dunno wanna
qo out or nurt lehs , aiyah honq qan lahs , father not at hme ,
den i went to bathe , chanqed whif to one4five.
met baby , ahhan , nic, jianqshi ! LOLS =x
thouqh i qo mit baby , but in my heart , i still havent fully
forqive him . its realli damn hard to forqive . ARGHS !
=pPp den weilun qorqor came after that toqether whif willy .
yupsyups den aiai came too (: ate ,, then went to lot1.
baobei haohao was there. ahjohn qorqor also . TEEHEES XD
elson abscond lurh ='( hais . fresh case. all of my frens , one by one
qoinq in RTC le. whie all of them dunno how to think siahs .
ARGHS * sad lahs , den a while , acc peiqi to duplicate her hse key.
den went hme lurh (: nth much happened today (:

todays horoscope : Loud, brash or obnoxious energies will distract you now -- you must act quickly.

Don't put up with things that make you uncomfortable today -- there's simply no need to deal with annoying people or situations. Your diplomacy skills are top-notch and up to the challenge of confrontation. Loud energy, obnoxious people and rude behavior are all unacceptable for you today. The most important thing to remember is that you need to act quickly to make things work. Holding on to your displeasure will only add to your stress and delay the solution.

2006-07-26T04:36:00.000-07:00

today went to sch also (:
veri quai riqhts. haha !
hhm . firstly , went for assembly.
its like all of my frens sayinq that my
hair is dyed ?! DIAOS !
i alreadi dye back BLACK so many times?
still qurt colour. nabeh ! xP
den went for NAPFA test re-test .
cos the actual day i dint qo to sch ! LOL
damn tirinq . my stupid sit up i qurt 4o times.
quite alot lah . for that is A* (: yeps .
den pull up i qurt 1o onli. GRINS * >.<
standinq broad jump i tink shud be 153 bahs ?!
den shuttle run 12.3 TEEHEES ! XD
lastly , sit & reach i tink i qurt 4o plus bahs. nurt sure :DD
stupid lah ! my sports is BAD ! bleahs
hhm , i tink these few days i tink throuqh lurh.
if im happy , my day also pass ,
if im sad , my days will stil pass , whie dunt i be happy ?
in stead of beinq sad & anqri ?!
HAIS* after NAPFA test , i went to hme econs room
for my practical . HAHAHA :D
firstly , collect the potatoes & onions [ yucks ] & veqetables &
curry powder . den , i cut the potatoes , my fren cut the onion &
another fren stir the curry powder whif some water
to make it like qravy. yups ;
den after that , collect the oil & den heat up ,
after heatinq up , put the onions inside till it become translucent.
den pour the potatoes in. after pourinq in , stir and den put
the curry qravy in. smells qreat ! :DDD
keep on fryinqt till the potatoes are soft . den put the veqetables in.
the veqetable consist of carrot, corn, beans. den continue fryinq
till everithinq's cooked ! den qo collect the pohpiah skin.
and then wrapped. after that take all the wrapped pohpiah to the
front , my teacher helped us to deep fry it ! WOAH ~ ! so nice lahs ?!
hahahaha XD bleahs ! but i dint even ate one.
today didnt had my recess . no appetite. XD
jolenebaby & cherrie baby & lynette & euqenia meimei helped me
to finish it up & leonard and my rayhan baby ! all y nu-er & erzi (:
yups; DO YOU FEEL LIKE EATING ?! hahaha !
after recess went baq to class , enqlish lesson . quite relaxinq.
marcus is the clown everiday ! LUCKY stil qurt him !
den after that , science lesson. knn . damn boliao lorh.
copi notes ! but i love writtinq ((:
after that ,, mother tonque ! DAMN FCUKING RELAXING !
hahaha ! i love my chinese teacher ! haha XD
she liqhten up my day ! :DD
den dissmissed ! BLEAHS ~ went out of sch , saw qrace &
nic & yujun ! LOLS ! den my bus is here . i ran to catch up the bus
whif one of my fren . den stupid qrace walk so slow !
purposely one lorh . damn anqri. so i went hme alone.
prepare everitinq , went to lot. but im nurt in a qd mood today .
yups ; weilun qorqor qave me his small pillow today (:
the one he used to hab since baby ! HAHAS !
treasure lehs * hahaha ! but sorri. today i nurt in qd mood.
didnt see aiai today. miss her so muchie !
nobodi to share my problems whif. hais .
i dunt hafta prove to everione that im innocent. time will
prove everitinq . they like to believe others , let them be bahs.
i dunt qib a fcukinq damn to it alriqhts. one day you quys will
slowly reqret ! reqret for thinkinq that she's kelian OR STUFFS !
thouqh in iu quy's eyes , im the bad one . but its okay !
quess wad ?! i dunt nid yr trust ! hmphs *
the only one who`ll trust me is my aiai , no one else.
no one else can be trusted !
still one thinq , be yrself for who you are.
dunt hafta chanqe cos of pple's comment !
im nurt borned to be critisized . neither am i borned to
be bad-mouthed by others. dey aint my mother whie must they
comment on me ?! FCUKING BITCH !
hais. my life is in a mess now. who can help me re-create
a new life ?! only my aiai bahs. MIA whif her (:
qoinq to other place lurh. i can do it . YAY !
hhm . reach hme earli today cos i felt irritated beinq out today !
arqhs . hehees* bouqht a shirt today (: BLEAHS =pPp
bored now. nothinq to do lahs !
dunno how to express my fcukinq feelinq now .
DIRTY ARSE ! fcuk off please ! =pPp

today's horoscope : In a contest or game try to let your competitiveness take a back seat to kindness.

After a long period of sleeping soundly, your competitive nature is beginning to awaken -- and it has something very powerful to say. The trouble is, today isn't the time to start getting too combative with other people who may try to threaten your reputation. If you're involved in a contest or game today, rein in your impulse to steal the show. Be a gentle foe and treat all the people you encounter (no matter how threatening they may seem) with kindness and genuine warmth.

diaos =_= "
tiredtiredtired . =x
nth much to comment lurh.
spilled out everitinq to aiai.
im much more betta liaos !
thnks aiai :DD LOVES !

2006-07-25T05:31:00.000-07:00

today went to sch XD
actualli pontant durhs.
TEEHEES :DD
but stupid qorqor slpinq den his battery flat.
nvm (: i went to sch ! haha !
when i reach sch outside , i saw honqlinq (:
he on the way to sch also. chestnut (:
LOLS =x siansation ; ARGHS ~``went to sch.
do werk .slept durinq CME lesson . stupid marcus
bao toh me to teacher. haha XD
den ms fonq call me wake up.
but i went back to slp aqain . hu cares ?!
she also dunt care. hahaha XD
this teacher qd to bully ! HURRHURRs *
after that went hme lorh. i suppose to fetch nicholas
outside AVI at 4.3opm. but when i reached lot
at 3 plus , i forqot. haha =pPp
den he reached lot1 say i bomb him . LOLS =x
muahahaas ! tmr waitinq for him outside sch at 1.3opm
den qo lot toqether. i quess im wearinq sch uni to lot ?BLEAHS =pPp sian lah ! knn =x
reached lot 1 , saw huiyi , ninq darlinq , jeanette , lianqwei ,esmond . willy (: at mac.went in. talked to them , den mit eewin & weilun qorqor lorh.
yupsyups ; erhms . after that went up to kpool ,
ninqz darlinq went up after a while . den joanna & michelle
came . huiyi asked joanne sumthnq . she said " woah ! ytd powerhors " den joanne answered " ahboi arhs ? " no lah we jus frens "hhm . diaos =_=" wadd an arse ! bloody dirty arse .
the old boi came back ytd ! 24th july o6 monday !
hurhurs * nice show cominq up next ((:
nvmnvm . den darlinq brouqht me a bad news ?!
HACK CARES ! WHO THE HELL CARES ?! LOLS =x
den went dwn to level 1 to smoke. whif haohao baobei qorqor,beebee aiai , ninqz darlinq , yujinq , jeanette , ah john , huiyi.
den qinna_boi came. LOL i quickly pull jeanette to the toilet
whif me. seeinq him disqusted me lah ! arqhs !CRAPSS :DDDD
den i came out , he's still dere. waddahells ?!
hhm . nth much happened after that. iqnored him ? like i alwaesdo. and enjoy doinq ! HAHA !
takinq it as nth happened (:
beinq a happy & stronq qurl. den weilun qorqor asked me wadhappened ? i act as if i was ok. act as if im alriqht .but deep inside , im nurt. i told myself to be stronq .
by holdin back everythinq . i keep all my feelinqs deep inside.(: HAPPY qirl !den a while , went hme. qorqor accompani me qo wait for bus.
thnks qorqor. (:im a happy qirl . :DDD takekaires everione.

today;s horoscope : Romance and work will conflict, and you must keep your eye on the ball to get a hit.

There's always a lot of controversy surrounding workplace romances, but the bottom line is that you need to make the right decisions for your life. You know exactly what the best move is right now. You also know what your priorities should be, so follow them. Keep your eye on the ball and ignore what other folks have to say about you. This general principle is a valuable one to apply to all areas of your life. You know what you're doing -- trust yourself

i know wad im doinq. dunt teach yr mother how to fcuk !
i hafta trust myself.i did this decision & i will trust my decision madE !

2006-07-24T06:41:00.000-07:00

todays horoscope : What was the last hare-brained idea you had? Try it again now and it just may work.

In the past, you've had some wonderful harebrained ideas that were invented as you wandered along during interesting journeys. But some of them had to be left by the wayside. These forgotten inspirations may still have something to offer you, so revisit them today. Look back at some of your ideas (the nuttier the better) and bring them back to the front burner. Get them simmering again, and they might find a new place in your life. Sometimes you're ahead of your time.

2006-07-24T06:04:00.000-07:00

erms , reach hme lorh .
veri veri hunqry !!
HURRS *
cm hme cook maqqie mee~
i so pitiful . LOLS =x
erhms . jus browse throuqh my folders.
saw one of the pic me & qrace took
quite lonq aqo. . but haven upload (:
LOLS ! hm , today went to sch (: quai kia leh !
haha ! but 2.15pm den dismiss. usually
my friends cant even see my soul in sch on monday ?
ahahaha XD BLEAHS !
tmr qoinq to sch also (:
after dismissal , i rushed hme to qet myself ready to qo out?
YAY :D but suddenly moodswinqs. hais ='(
waddahells ?! hhm , den baby waited for me at kpool.
sian lah . hhm , missinq my dearrestboy jeffreyqoh.
wonder how's he inside. its been a lonq tym since i received
his letter ='(
den went to kbox whif baby. DIAOS ! baby say i becum veri
cold towards baby* hais. sorri baby.
i nort in the qd mood. summore i heard some thinqs which i
shouldnt hab heard. the old baby was back !
the same old thinq i heard abt you last tym * arqhs .
cant believe it. thouqht baby hab alreadi chanqed !
hhm , nvmnvm =)
ren yao kan de kai :DD stay happy !
after a while yy aiai came XD sinqsinqsinq lorhs .
aiai talked to me. hais .
sians ! whie is my moodswinq cominq baq ?!
i wana qo to sch ! MARCUS LEONG CAN MAKE ME LAUGH
like mad ! bleahs ! hahaha :DDD
hhm . watchinq the 9pm show now. bored ?!
1o qoinq to bed lurh. baby say wan call me. but didnt ?!
wonder whie. nvm (:
endinq here whif a BIG SMILE :DD

2006-07-23T06:49:00.000-07:00

im yrs (: now & foreva !
my cute cute & sweet blusher (:
my mascara (: blusher , two bracelet & lipqlose !

waddahhels. jus finish bloqqinq then my com hanq ?!
knn ! damn dulan lahs !
today everitinq was fine.
except tat peiqi sister wasnt here.
hais. a biq war between her & peipei .
i quess both parties also sad bahs .
didnt wan my sisters to hab such biq misunderstandinqs ='(
hhm , went to lot 1 whitout mitinq anione ,
qrace dear cannort come out ! NBCB !
den weilun qorqor off hp leh . den cant find aiai & darlinq .
den jus qo lot see qurt who lorh . when i on the way ,
i thouqh of dinqdinq , den called her .
she say she`ll reached around 2 or 3 pm !
diaos . so lonq , den i rmbed eewin ! hahaha !
called her . she at one4five. asked her to qo lot .
i kept on hurryinq her. yet , she reached earlier ! HAHA
becum she hurry me ! LOLS =x
den went to more than words buy biscuit ! cos the wrapper
veri cute XD den eewin bouqht sweet (: blackcurrent !
nicenicenice :DD i so qreedy kept on snatchinq her sweet ~
BLEAHS ! den after that i went to the blues bouqht
a qolden shoelace . HAHA ! xD
same as my babyjolene :DD hhm , den went around ,
bouqht a new lipqlose (: new mascara :DD and a cute
blusher ! damn fcukinq sweet & cute lahs ! and two pearls bracelet.
erhs , tmr qoinq to sch (:
beinq a quaikia lurh . nurt qonna pontant.
onli one month one time :DD TEEHEES !
tmr weilun qorqor fetchinq me :D YAYS !
dunno he can wake up nurts. den tmr qurt to wait for my
underqround lover outside AVI ?! waddahells !
she qurt taiji siahs . today saw my underqround lover too (:
FERLYN ! haha XD
after tmr , everiday tues & thurs , nurt qonna skip enrichments.
den mon , wed & fri CCA (:
onli qo out on saturdays & sundays !
dunt miss me arhs =pPp wanna be quaikia.
summore everiday qo out also spent money only !
LOLS ! hhm , nth more to bloq. qoinq to bed lurh . if nurt
that NABEH CCB father qonna cor and kaobeh lurhs !
HMPHS ! i miss my peiqi sis & xueqi laoqonq .
and lastly , my baby (:

2006-07-22T18:52:00.000-07:00

ehs. wad happened to me ?
i woke up so damn earli today.
haha (: lyk normal sch day, i woke up at
5.1oam. in fact earlier than the tym i alwaes
wake up. LOL =x
feelinq so bored. its 9.29am now.nth to do leh . arqhs.
ytd qurt stupid ssb doqqies.
fcuk the ssb !

weilun qorqor ,
you cannot surrender okays XD
must be stronq (:we`ll be dere to support you.
thouqh you`ve run for a veri lonq tym,
that you`re tired, this once , if you really qo in ,
i think iu cant see us for
a veri lonq tym lurh. i`ll write letter to you still.
but are yousure you wanna leave yr meimei in the lurch ?
qorqor , must take qreat cares.
eat more . see your body becuminq smaller
lurh . lyk willy. hahaha XD hhm , qurt chance den let iu see this (: takekares. meimei LOVES you !

darlinq ,
i see that you and bee qurt a lil closer lurh
happy for you. haha ! ytd blk shoppinq damn fun
lah , but i didnt any shoe. LOL =x
you arh , everitym dowan qo hme, yr mum kip
on callinq me, thouqh veri fan but nvm still can
tolerate. but if you nvr qo hme, yr mother wunt
qib you money , how you eat ?haiyohs. must qrow up ok !!
tink for yr mum also. she cares for you thats why she
naqs. my stupid mother. i buey tahan her alreadi
but i stil qo home on time riqht.
abt bee de thinqs , jus let it moves slowly as per normal
okays XD im sure he`ll slower feel ur qreat love.
muack. all the best !

aiai [ playqurl yy ]
i see that you`re so sad abt your sweet
i also sad. thouqh im also sad abt my
candy , but this is nothinq that we can do.
we can jus lie to our heart sayinq that we dunt
care. but deep inside , we`re hurtinq so much
riqhts. you alwaes deny arh . but i can see
durh. one day you didnt see sweet , it`s lyk
one whole year. thouqh i can see my candy.
but also no use riqht. nvm (: imma stronq qurl now.
playqurl yy you dunt hafta worry abt me lurh (:
i can hold baq my tears and slowly let qo.
playqurl AQ loves playqurl YY foreva !

lyrics. lyrics.
sonq title : you make me wanna.

everitim you see me wad do you see
i feel like im a poor man and you`re the queen
oh baby ~ you`re the only thinq that i really need,
baby thats why~
you make me wanna call you in the middle of the niqht.
you make me wanna hold you till the morninq liqht.
you make wanna love , you make me wanna fall ,
you make me wanna surrender my soul.
i know this is a feelinq that i jus cant fiqht ,
you`re the first and last thinq on my mind ,
you make me wanna love ,you make me wanna fall ,
you make me wanna surrender my soul.

hhms. nth to do now. so earli
quessed no ones awake bah :(
nvm. back to my sweet dreams after
bloqqinq (: YEPS (:
endinq here whif a qlloomysmile. =/

2006-07-22T08:22:00.000-07:00

today im havinq sucha bad mood.
dunt wish to talk abt it lurh (:
i`ll stay happy.
keep away all those unhapiness.
qood days qib me happiness.
bad days qib me experience ((:
endinq whif a smile.

2006-07-20T06:28:00.000-07:00

darlinq ,
iu must be stronq. qet over bee
like how iu qet over yanq okays XD
yea. i noe iu`ve been hurt all these
while. when i was whif bee. iu`re hurt
too. but iu kept me in the dark.
iu tot i dunno . but from iur behavior ,
i can see that iu`re really qek xim that
time. hais.
love is laidat durh. feelinqs comes & leave
when iu didnt even realised it.
iu must be stronq towards this okays XD
i`ll be dere durh :D
i`ll keep iu updated abt him alriqhts.
take lorts of care. dunt forqet to eat.
kip on buyinq thinqs nvr care abt iur health.
hhm. MUACKS !

2006-07-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

teehees (:
i jus created new bloq wor.
tired of the previous one.
hahaha :D
erhs. nth to do now.
damn fcukinq dulan whif qrace lorh!
knn. arqhs.
today pontant tio spot by mummy.
hahaha ):
but mummy so disappointed.
cos last term i promised her not to do it
lurh ='( hhms. tmr hafta qo to sch.
sians. stil considerinq whether shud i
wear the japanese costume !
so paiseh lorhs. haha !
loveslovesloves (: