THE BABY.
firstcry; 24o5
called; anqi
can be seen; mostly at lot1
described; love to be pampered by my baby.
loves; mybaby.
hellokitty.
candies.
self-abuse.
waiting for ur return.
jus wanna spill out everithinq here. hais ='( today many sad thinqs happened. hhm. went to sch as usual. nth much happened in sch norh. marcus didnt come. was so bored in class lah. arqhs. went hme at 2.15pm. dunno wanna qo sch tmr norts. national day celebration onli. hais. when im on the way hme, peiqi called me. sayinq that my precious baby & davidbro kana brouqht back by those fcukinq doqs ! my heart dropped. i didnt believe at first. cos baby msqed me when im in class ='( he asked me to qo lot1 fasterfaster. when i tried to rush, i heard this piece of sad news. i knew i couldnt do anythinq. was cryinq at hme. after i bathe, make up, i went to 3o7 to mit weilun qor, beebee aiai, cyn. hais ='( i`ve tried to be a stronq qirl by nort drippinq any tears when im outside. and i did it. but my heart was lyk so down. hais ='( my baby was still talkinq to me ytd. hais. realli dunno how to describe my fcukinq feelinqs now. i jus noe that im so sad. so so so sad. so dwn. david was still msqinq me in the morninq ='( waddahells * its so heartpain to hear that they`re inside. wad to do? cant do anithinq. when i reached, peiqi still tell me, when they sanq sonqs at kbox, baby shouted " BABY " !! arqhs ! fcukfcukfcuk. fcuk the law && fcuk it all ~!! you told me you miss me miserably. i dowan you to miss me miserably. i wan you to tink of me happily. realli miss those memories toqether. i wanna hear the cute baby callinq me baby. that day when you brouqht me to the doctor. when im sick , when you qave me comfort.
i still love you even if you dont. i love you so much i cant let qo. i love you im faithful. i love you too much i didnt cared how you feel` you were the best thinq that happened to me. i did nothinq wronq why did you let qo. left me here waitinq all alone.
i nvr wanna say qdbye. nvr wanna see you cry. nvr wanna hold you back animore. and i jus wanna let you noe that you dont hafta qo. how can i eva forqet the way you touched me, hold me, kiss me tenderly. whie did you turn yr back on me? you noe i need you do bad baby. all that i can see standinq here whif me is onli the onli soul within me. you almost always pick the best time. to drop the worse line. you alwaes make me cry, everiday at niqht.
den they celebrated niv birthday at a blk dwnstairs. hais ='( its suppose to be a happy one whif their boss at kbox. whie did it turn out this way ? nobodi knows. no one expects ! elson, baobei, shaun, daotonq, ah han, nic, hai qui , his qal was havinq a qreat smile i quess i smiled too. but it was all fakesmiles that i qave. the sadness jus cant fade away. the memories whif baby && david is rewindinq in my mind. to and fro. hais. ='( tink this is the onli words that can describe my feelinqs now. fcukup life. so screwdup ! aniway, jus pray that they`ll be okay. may qod bless them ! missinq them lots, in the name of baby. XDD tryinq veri hard to cheer myself up. quarrelled whif baobei also. dunno wads up lah ! fcukfcukfcuk. alreadi so stress up. but yet. hais !='(
